I Don’t Want to Hurt Myself Anymore

Disclaimer: This is fiction

I don’t want to hurt myself anymore, I am afraid that it will go too far. I have to find a way to get my mind off of hurting myself. Because if I don’t I won’t be around much longer.

I Don’t Want to Hurt Myself Anymore

It’s hard fighting the urge to hurt myself. So I came up with the only solution I could think of. My only comfort is knowing that I can hurt the girl in the trunk instead.

Am I insane? Should I seek professional help? I have it under control as long as I continue to hurt the girl in the trunk. I must be insane. Who kidnaps some random girl and keeps her in a trunk to torture?

I cannot believe I have done this. What else have I done in the past? Am I a murderer? Because it sure seems like I am. I get my thrills from hearing her scream in pain.

I don’t want to hurt myself anymore because it’s getting so hard to stop myself. But as long as I keep the girl in the trunk I will be okay. This is bad I am going to get into trouble.

Maybe I should try and speak to someone. No, because if I do that then they will find out about the girl in the trunk. Am I crazy? Am I insane? I must be mentally challenged to do something so wrong.

Finally, I can Release The Pain

When I got off work tonight I went home. It was a long dragged out kinda day and the boss was being a mighty real jerk to me today. It makes me feel like cutting myself to release the pain.

There was no need to do that anymore. As I reached the basement to unwind I unlatched the trunk and brought out my toy. She was strapped to the table I had down there in the basement so she could not move.

I took out the razor blades I had in the desk drawer. She then began to beg me not to kill her. I said, “I’m not going to kill you, I’m just going to cut you.” As she screamed, “PLEASE, DON’T CUT ME!!” I just smiled back and said, “but the cuts release my pain now scream for me!”

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